Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Monday Bloggin' Done on Tuesday

Can’t live without it!

So do I go with the serious answer or the not-so-serious one?

I could live without most things, I’m sure, as long as I had food, clothing, water and shelter. I mean, everything else is just icing, right? Coffee’s good. I think I have to have it, but, other than a headache, what would happen if I didn’t have it? Chocolate? Wonderful stuff but it does tend to widen the hips. My scrapping stuff? It fills my time & nurtures my creativity, but I could exist without it.

But the one thing I could not survive without is love! The love of my husband (as strange as our relationship may be!). And the love of my daughter. Just thinking about being without either of them brings tears to my eyes. If anything ever happens to either of them, I’m not sure how I’ll go on. I can’t imagine it.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not one of those wimpy women who can’t change a light bulb without a man around. I can do most things and if I can’t I can find out how. But sometimes at night I look over and wonder what the bed would be like without him. What would I do without his gentle urgings to help me correct some of the areas of my life where I lack commitment? How quiet the house would be without his rummaging through the junk food or the sound at night of that breathing machine! The world would be such a dark, quiet place, and I’m not sure I could adjust after all these years.

And as for living without my daughter. I don’t even want to go into that! All of us who have children know that dread feeling of fear we get occasionally for no apparent reason. As she has reached adulthood, it has gone from the irrational fear that someone will burst into her classroom and go ballistic with a gun to the not-so-irrational fear that some drunk will cream her on her way home from work. I try to keep these feelings at bay, as I am a true believer in the self-fulfilling prophecy. But sometimes they just rear their ugly head! I just know that without her love, I would cease to exist.

So that’s it. I guess I went for the serious answer, didn’t I. Love … can’t live without it!


Radona said...

i totally agree! love is the key ingredient for getting through life! isn't it wonderful to have?!! great bloggin!

Amy said...

I love your take on this, great post!! I get those scary thoughts about my girls too :::sigh::: so I guess it doesn't go away as they get older, huh?